i can't live my life this way

survey nig-GA

Thu, 05 May 2005 03:47:27 GMT

TATS:
:x: name: amanda
:x: piercings: two on each ear... used to be four
:x: tattoos: none. thinking about it...
:x: height: 5'2...?
:x: hair color: brown
:x: length: a little past the shoulders
:x: age: 15
:x: birthday: 8.31.89
:x: stats: single but its complicated
:x: school: canyon springs nig-GA
:x: siblings: two sisters two brothers. biggest age gap in the world.
:x: teeth ornaments: NONE.

LAST:
:x: movie you bought: cinderella story...?
:x: song you listened to: days go by(acoustic)- dirrty vegas
:x: song that was stuck in your head: ex factor- lauryn hill
:x: cd you bought: i dont even remember. i get that mess BURNED.
:x: cd in your cd player: radiohead. ok computer.
:x: person you've called: jasmine
:x: person that's called you: jasmine haha
:x: person you've hugged: rb
:x: person you've kissed: ha. same person i always kiss. MY MOMMA. jk.. i kissed rachelle on the cheek
:x: person you've hit: nathaniel.
:x: person you've fought with: rb but its not a big deal anymore.
:x: person you complimented: carla
:x: tv show you've watched: smallville nig-GA
:x: class you went to: elements of design. haha
:x: movie: amittyville.

FAVORITE:
:x: food: e v e r y t h i n g .
:x: song: depends on my mood
:x: thing to do: chillin with all of my friends watching tv
:x: thing to talk about: the future. beliefs.
:x: sports: volleyball even though i'm not playing it right now.
:x: drink: milk. does a body good.
:x: movie: love actually or eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. they BOTH win.
:x: X-men: wolverine
:x: saying: 'you wanna shut up?'
:x: disney movie: aladdin DUH.
:x: scent: sheer fresia...? that one spray from bath and body
:x: word: haha... nig-GA.
:x: nickname: its not my favorite. its between ugly and fatty.. oh and little boy.
:x: guy name: dang. um...
:x: girl name: loreli
:x: eye color: green
:x: piercing: tongue. thats hot.
:x: class: english

HAVE YOU:
:x: ever cried over a guy: haha who does that? ....yes. i have.
:x: ever lied to someone: yeah and i'm not proud of it whatsoever
:x: ever been in a fist fight: not since i was eight
:x: ever been arrested: I SWEAR THOSE WEREN'T MINE.
:x: ever eaten frog legs: doesnt everyone?

NUMBER:
:x: of times I have been in love: once. and i think once is enough ha...
:x: of times I have had my heart broken: too many times to count.
:x: of hearts I have broken: ive broken a few in my day ;) hahahah jk. i dont know
:x: of guys I have kissed: lips: :) ive had my fun. hahaha
:x: of drugs taken illegally: naw man. none of that.
:x: of things in my past that I regret: ...that one trip to tj... hahaha I LIVE LIFE WITH NO REGRETS NIG-GA.

DO:
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else: yeah all the time. but i like it here
:x: you believe in online dating: nah
:x: others find you attractive: *shrugs* if they did i think i'd have a boyfriend by now...
:x: you want more piercings: yeh fa sho
:x: you drink: all the time. h2o DUH.
:x: you do drugs: i told you they weren't MINE.
:x: you smoke: nah i think its kinda gross
:x: you write in cursive or print: print
:x: you carry a donor card:..no?
:x: you believe in long distance relationships: yeah actually
:x: using someone: NO.
:x: killing people: i'd like to... but really i dont.
:x: teenage smoking: nah but i dont really care that much either
:x: driving drunk: NO. NO. NO.
:x: gay/lesbian relationship: its not my thing but you feel what you feel
:x: soap operas: hehe. i like em.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
:x: pretty: nope. i get told i'm not every day of my life.
:x: funny: i GUESS. like... dorky funny.
:x: hot: HA. yeah right.
:x: friendly: yessir.
:x: shy: haha yeah... a lot of times
:x: ugly: : hey. they tell me i'm a pretty kind of ugly hahahaha
:x: loveable: i like to think so
:x: pessimistic: no. i dont like people like that
:x: optimistic: yeah pretty optimistic... maybe overly...
:x: caring: yeah sometimes too much
:x: sweet: i have my moments
:x: dorky: YES.
:x: stubborn: i'm working on it.
:x: random: only in chemistry.

RANDOM:
:x: spell your first name back wards: adnama
:x: the story behind your user name: its my last name nig-GA
:x: are you straight: yessir
:x: where do you live: moval
:x: SN: PSHHH.. you know it.
:x: numbers in your cell phone: just like everyone elses DUH 0-9
:x: shampoo: healthy sexy hair shampoo :)
:x: soap: dove

DESCRIBE YOUR:
:x: wallet: dont got one
:x: hairbrush: long and black haha
:x: toothbrush: white and green

excited? no...

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 06:39:17 GMT

IMMA GET CRUNK TOMORRROW.

yeeeaaaah tomorrow's prom. too bad i still have to buy SHOES...
ha. i'm usually prepared for these kinds of things.
camera charged? CHECK. you'll be seeing that mess on myspace hahaha
too bad that i'm worried about a lot of people. i dont like how i worry. dont make me worry.
but i talked to my mom... and she said its not so bad.
so there you go.
my thoughts on prom: excited :)
my thoughts RIGHT NOW: trying to act like i accept everything. itll settle in eventually. still<3you. its my turn to be stupid.

ewwww WEIRD.

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 05:41:52 GMT

for those of you who have siblings/cousins:

isn't weird witnessing your brother and/or cousin flirt with someone?
it made me laugh, and i had a facial mask on--i looked stupid. and it hurt.
but it makes me shiver thinking about anyone in my family being all... FLIRTATIOUS.
ughhh... its not bad. i'm actually happy for them...
ITS JUST WEIRD.

i dont like it.

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 00:45:20 GMT

i dont like how every thing that i have to say is about one certain subject.
i dont like how its hot and then cold.
i dont know what i'm doing anymore.
and i'm tired of it.
you dont know how pissed i am.

awlekfjwlidgjwih

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 01:22:21 GMT

i'm done with alg2 homework. haha as done as i could be. too bad i dont understand anything...

saturday...
went to the valley to my cousin's baby shower. they had children that i didn't even know were born which made me so out of touch it was almost heartbreaking. i dont know... i used to be all family oriented with the ortizs. OH WELL..
so yesterday...
i laughed so hard with my brother that its hardly believable. even had a serious convo about boys and girls. who knew we'd be so close?
went to aj's lil' jazz band gig at the mall. they were tight... aaaaand FREE FOOD. :)
and today...
the usual stressing out over school routine. :( i didn't realize how lazy i was being last week.
rb and i went to yoshinoya after school. i killed that mess. people who can drive ROCK.
realized that i <3 you and it makes me a little sad.
its okay. i get by. :)

ITS FRIDAY

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 01:41:29 GMT

i couldve sworn today was saturday and yesterday was friday.

iono... it was friday yesterday. it was too fun to not be a friday. i'm still not convinced.
we ordered pizza and me, jazz, rb, and rach had our little oc marathon. FIRST SEASON BIIIIIITCH. i really liked how we analyzed everything... and then talked about the characters as if they were our friends. like this drama actually exists. we're tight.
yeah. the oc. never got into it til rach borrowed the box set.
i think i'll like any series... as long as i have it on dvd.
dont get me wrong... commercials are cool and all--but not that cool.
hmmm then after rb and jazz left... cher and kevin picked us up and we watched s'more oc. :P
and that was my 'friday night'.
i'm kind of changning my mind about new york--i'm still going. just not right after high school. maybe i'll hang around so cal a little longer. i honestly dont think i'll be able to move in... what? two years? thats a little hard.

today...? haha i didn't go to school.
ive been getting lazy. i'm sorry. i know its not fair. why should i not have to go to school and get extended due dates and such while the rest of you dont, right? i know.
--but if it makes any of a difference... i'm in trouble. that hasnt happened in a while.
that lady that i call mom. yeah. she's a meanie.
so i stayed home and did my homework as promised. studied a LITTLE for alg2... which is actually the class i've been trying to avoid.
--cuz HONEY. spanish is easy. i teach myself spanish. not mr. acord. he can go home and stop worrying about my filipino self not understanding... CUZ I DO.
got k.gino hooked on the oc. (shhh... don't tell anyone even though i just posted it on my livejournal for all of you to read)
he's becoming more in touch with american society as we speak. i knew he'd come back down to earth some day. suckaaaaa.
rb tried his best to punk me today... saying he didn't get his liscense-- except he so did.
its okay though. cuz he didn't really get me... cuz i kind of knew. ive been in the car with him too many times to know that he can't fail his driver's test. i mean... c'mon. thats just silly.
so he and aj stopped by for five seconds.
kris came by so i could give him my money... cuz PROM is next week.
andidonthaveshoesand/oraccesoriesbuti'mnotabarbiesowhocares.
i'm excited. :D

i'm having fun. :)
moval. youre the best.

4/20? time to stay home :)

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 17:00:57 GMT

4/20 is a holiday. i'm so sure.

i woke up at 515 and i was like 'oh yeah. 4/20' and went back to sleep. :)

so.. now i'm stuck here. and i dont know what to do. GOOD ONE.

'sorry isnt enough...' --LANA. hehe

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 04:54:39 GMT

i'm CRAZY. i just bought a camcorder.

AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! you dont even know how long ive been waiting for this moment. IVE BEEN SAVING UP FOR THREE MONTHS-- and i still didn't come close.

but my parents <3 i love. i dont wanna ask for anything else right now... not even food. haha i'm scared to.

:)))))))))))))))))))x a million.

anyway... garage sale at aj and jasmine's. IT WAS FUN. i made jasmine laugh so hard that milk came out of her nose. NO JOKE. i laugh just thinking about it. my stomach hurts. i think we're all crazy.

we watched lame olsen twin tv shows and everything thats on the WB. i dont understand how the olsen twins get such hot guys EVERY damn time. ITSNOTFAIR. i wanna be rich.

OH HEY AND YESTERDAY...

.cooked a great SALMON with rachelle. i wanna be able to have a cute little sit down meal with friends. (just once guys. c'mon.)

.amityville (you should watch) with rach, rb, brusty. haha

then after that we chilled at dusty's for a bit... then kevin and sam picked me and rachelle up to go pick up cher and charlotte. LOOKED AT HAUNTED STUFF. whoever can live on that property is either a)crazy or b)desperate. CUZ MAN... i'd cry.

ha then when i got home... i RAN to do everything-- i even closed my eyes as i brushed my teeth because i'm that brave.

AND TO BE HONEST...
i'mnotmadjustunreasonablyjealous.

(when i read through this... i sound SO annoying. heh heh.)

SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT... :D

Sun, 10 Apr 2005 17:55:38 GMT

stupid rb and that stupid song on his voicemail.

anyway... very last day of spring break. i SAID i was gonna study-- well... i say a lot of things.

friday:

aj's show. he did GREAT. like wow. and if you werent there-- you missed out.

played pool. i suck :)

SIN CITY is ridiculously violent. I LOVED IT. it's the funniest movie of all time. YOU SHOULD WATCH.

hung out with kathy a little. havent done that in a whiiiiile... she was quite the rebellious one. HIGH FIVE.

saturday:

LA FITNESS= three hour nap afterwards.

sunday morning:

had my morning conversation with k.gino. i have learned that we have the same ideas about BEAUTY (see. i'm not stupid). we talked about how catherine ZETA JONES has a cool last name. and then eventually we came up with a cooler last name-- OMEGA SMITH. haha

need:
.muse.
.killers.
.bagels.
.smoked salmon.
.i heart huckabees.
.the late fee at videoshores to be paid.

awwwwwkward

Fri, 08 Apr 2005 04:43:00 GMT

went to the COLD SUNNY BEACH yesterday. and it was gross... low tide is nasty. there were so many dead things--wow . not cute. rb bought me a COOL jacket CUZ HE'S THE COOLEST PERSON EVERRRR. umm umm.. water was freezing but i went in anyway. cuz you know... i can take it. :D

so TOMORROW we're going to UV... and i accidently made a mess of who's going to be there. :P

i like awkward situations. its O-KAY. i'll figure it out. i'm good at dealing with awkward... haha

went to LA FITNESS today. yes. i'm a member. and MAN... i was working on all the light weight stuff... and i'm all tired. BOOOO i'm out of shape. haha so then after that... i took a three hour nap. CUZ YOU KNOW... warriors need their sleep.

chillin with JOANN tomorrow before UV :) i've missed her. i havent seen her for WEEKS. i promise.

yay!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 02:22:05 GMT

amanda got a prom dress. :)

..and she wont tell you where she bought it because she doesn't want any other girl shopping there :)

she also signed up for LA FITNESS. she'll be losing weight soon starting tomorrow. you should wish her luck. :)

AND I'M BACK.

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 02:39:26 GMT

i'm so cool that i dont have to update my freakin livejournal.

ha.

i'm just kidding. i TRIED to a couple of days ago... then i got distracted and left the unpublished entry all by its lonesome. :) i'm freakin cool.

anyway... spring break just started, and to start off my kick-ass week i went to get my hair cut, and then i shopped at victoria gardens. TOO BAD that i just realized that i have a crap load of algebra 2 to study for. :( a one week break isn't long enough. didn't it used to be two? if it didn't... then it needs to be.

tomorrow's plans consist of:
prom dress shopping with ELLISE. yes. we're back foos. and yes i'm goin to PROM.

--too bad i can't find a dress.

hmmm...hmmm... i remember why i stopped updating. I DO NOTHING. haha well life's been good. not that anyone reads this anymore... and the people who WOULD come across it see me everyday.

aaaaaanyway... bought a whole new outfit. i'm good. peace.

happy halloween!!

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 04:28:31 GMT

sWtAnGeLbAbY013: HAHAHA!!
thAt1FReeLoAdEr: WHERE ARE YOU?!
thAt1FReeLoAdEr: raise your hand!!
sWtAnGeLbAbY013: behind you

ellise and i are boreder than bored in wired. i know, i know... WIRED. of all places. well um... ate rachel wanted to see her man and um... here we are. :)

lakeclub haunted house was theeeee funniest shiet everrrr. SCARY AS HECK. my stomach was hurting so bad that i was crawling through the haunted house. laughing+screaming HURTS.

good times good times. its not even halloween yet and i'm having the funnest time ever. ha!

uggghhh

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 04:07:56 GMT

OHHHHHHHH IN YOUR FACE MOM.

tryin to say i went over minutes. $1.85 baby.

and you?

what?

40 something?!

yeah.

what now.

>=P

hmm...

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 19:47:11 GMT

i feel like i haven't updated for weeks... but really its only been a few days.

school SUCKS. i'm two weeks behind with everything because volleyball+lazy=failure

i'm just about caught up with everything... but i feel weird. its like i dont notice that my grades are bad... well i think. i really thought i was doing well. i was doing my homework... test scores are pretty good (the ones i didn't miss that is). i should be passing right?

i have no idea.

that and... people have been trying to call me, but i either forget to call them back or i'm too tired... busy... etc. sorry. :/ i'm not being a good friend right now.

joann is the only person i actually talk to. i went with her to see her boyfriend five million times. too bad his friends are people i will never get along with. they need help.

if you're trying to hit on a girl that you're driving home, don't tell her that you crashed your car three times. it scares her just a tiny bit...

and... don't tell her you do drugs.

but if you buy her starbucks and the girl won't insult you on her livejournal.

:) and thats how i'm doing now-a-days.

har har har

Tue, 05 Oct 2004 23:58:45 GMT

I AM 9% EMO!

Okay... so I'm not emo at all.. I am probably not even goth, because goths are just messed up emo kids... I am probably a metal head... or into boy bands...

Take the EMO test at Fuali.com

haha funny.

good weekend. but now i'm sick. :P

i'm coughing and sneezing and it sucks.

a little disappointed...

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 04:47:44 GMT

this weekend was a BIG LET DOWN. like WHOA. amanda cant be happy.

i was SUPPOSED to go to carla's bday weekend but mom said 'its too far.'

i was SUPPOSED to go to westco with rachelle. but that didn't fall through because VOLLEYBALL HAS TAKEN OVER MY LIFE. *sigh*

i was STRAIGHT UP LIED TO. and that hurt. a lot. i'll get over it... never expected it though.

i went to carla's bday kickback and that was nice. had a lot of laughs and that was pretty good. but there're still a lot of things just holding me back from just having a REAL good time.

well... at least at the volleyball tournament i got to catch up with blake's life. it was pretty funny. i remember when we used to be like THIS in elementary school.

TIME TO UPDATE.

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 03:29:41 GMT

well i haven't updated in a good minute...

travelled to rubidoux today. THE END.

no really... a lot more happened than that.

rachelle, kathy, dusty, and i found a nice spot to hide if we wanted to ditch.

NOW i'm done.

watch y'all know....

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 04:08:34 GMT

today was amusing...

so mom, kuya, and i are at costco in westco. i'm there every weekend now. dont ask why... cuz i dont even know.

anyway... we were eating our delicious costco hot dogs and churros (yes! they brought em back!). nice day... blah blah.. so we go into costco then BAM. one of those black outs.

i was SCARED.

i thought costco would turn into hell on earth. you know how much stuff is in costco. you know how you get all excited when you find your favorite candy in BILLIONS. but then again... you cant really walk out the place with a five pound bag of candy in your purse now can you?

you can't steal from costco. there's just no way. if you want to steal something from there, you gotta steal all thirty-six of em. yeah. i wanna see someone try.

haha okay. homework time. gnight.

like ooohhhh my gash!

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 02:13:57 GMT

man. last night was the saddest i've been since EVER.

so we drive for one and a half hours to get to cathedral city... wait another one and a half hours to play... oh wait. they got to play. coach made me sit on the side and do their STATS. and i wasnt even on the list.

upset? no...

the worst feeling in the world has to be feeling happy and sad at the same time. you dont know what confusion is until that happens.

the game was intense. they were all playing SO well. jv and freshmen were about to throw some punches at cathedral's jv and freshmen teams. they were yelling, screaming, boo-ing, jumping. IT WAS MAD. there's something about palm springs that gets us so hyped like that.

yeah and there i was. i had nothing to do with how far the team had gotten. i sat there. i put tally marks on the clipboard. i was miserable. everyone EXCEPT FOR ME played. my self esteem went all the way down to -5.

BUUUUUUT... i'm happy today because coach put ME in for SARA--the CAPTAIN/SETTER/MVP at practice today. I KICKED ASS. yeah. make me sit on the bench all day tomorrow, coach paco. I DARE YOU TO.

won't be out until six in the evening. SORRY RB. sorry everyone. y'all know you dont need me around anymore... :P

BLEH.

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 05:11:53 GMT

i really, REALLY want to complain about just EVERYTHING right now. i just want to cry and pout about it and punch someone in the face...

BUT I WONT. just because i <3 school and its distracting. :)

i'm learning to really like school. BUT I HATE MY LIFE AFTER SCHOOL. because i have no life after school. because i play volleyball and do homework for the remainder of the day. because i dont have a social life anymore. because i've decided that i want to actually accomplish something. :(

*sigh* i havent even been in school for a week and already i'm complaining about my daily life. i need to stop being such a baby. anyway, i'm good for now. i have to get back to writing my amazerrrring story about a little boy named billy who's afraid of everything from a to z.

GNITE Y'ALL. :)

"coco WALA NA!"

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 05:20:16 GMT

today was pretty nice.

mom and i went to target to buy myself some notebooks... then we ended up buying a rug... some 3x5 notecards... pillows fabric softener... a foot spa...

hey man. we needed all those things.

hahah i think she's a compulsive shopper. the reason why our house has so much junk is because of her. she tried yelling at me for being messy today and told me to pick up my stuff so i did and she's still mad because its still not clean. so she goes around the house muttering 'oh.. this is mine... oh this too' as she picks up HER stuff thats ALL over the house.

ha.

anyway... she told me to go with dad to pick up kuya gino all the way out in pasadena. it was pretty fun actually. :)

alison looks WAAAAAAAAY different. like WOW. like how she looked when she was in high school. she was so0o0o0 pretty. she lost a lot of weight and it looks like she takes better care of herself now. thats good. i'm proud of her. :)

she showed me a picture of my brother and i on his graduation. BACK IN '99. i was HALF his size. and i still looked the same... :/ haha i really dont think i look any different from when i was little. sure i'm taller and everything... but i still pretty much look the same. so whoever thought i was an ugly child back then still thinks i'm ugly.

well that sucks.

haha so then we went to fry's in westco. got kuya whatever crap he needed for his music program and i bought a hair straightener. NO. my hair isnt straight. when it was long it was-- now its just out of control. its time to find a faster way to de-poof it.

when we got home, kuya gino tried convincing mom and dad to let him move out. THAT DIDNT TAKE LONG. hahah just kidding... he has no money. but man... if he moves out now i have FOUR ROOMS to myself.

four.

i'm planning it already. one room i'll keep for my stuffed animals because they need their own space. i'll have another room for keeping my clothes in and getting dressed. my downstairs room will be for music and the computer. and the BIG ASS room that kuya used to stay in is ALL MINE. and that comes with a walk-in closet but who needs that when you got a whole room...

ITS TIME I GOT BACK TO THE GOOD LIFE.

"dancing on a friday night..."

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 04:44:26 GMT

haha mom bought one of those oversized exercising balls for dad because he's a fatty. we both know i'm gonna throw it at dad's head when i wanna watch tv... haha you should picture that right now. throwing one of those oversized dodge balls at someone's head. they'd probably even flip a few times before falling over.

today...i spent most of my day decorating the downstairs room because its awfully plain. i was in the 'trading spaces' mood all morning. after that... we went to costco to buy my eyes and then barnes and noble :)

we got home to see that my new next door neighbor already has a police car in the front of his house. AWESOME. he doesnt even have most of his furniture in his house.

I LOVE DRUG DEALERS. :/

i dont want another drug dealer living next door to me!! THAT SUCKS. i already have a freakin gang member across the street from me. i dont even wanna get the mail anymore.

anyway... found out my dogs jumped over out new tall fence. there is no possible way that my dogs could be dogs.

what dog JUMPS OVER FENCES?!

i bet theyve been training this whole time... theyre sneaky... wth man. thats not cool. theyre supposed to be OLD.

OLD, LAZY, HAPPY DOGS!!

eh... oh well. school's treating me nicely :) i didn't like the arrangement at first. but then i thought more about it and i dont wanna change anything. i got first start :P i dont have to look nice anyway. most of the time i dont... so its okay. i just wanna get through the year. :)

so0o0o0 yeah. I'M DONE.

so long sweet summer

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 03:14:35 GMT

i shoulda done this update about summer yesterday... but i was busy :P

anyway.. SUMMER WAS AWESOME. aaaaaand even though i got in BIIIIIG TROUBLE i dont regret ANY OF IT. because maaaaan... that was wonderful. and i wanna thank my friends for that :) NOOOOOO regrets this summer.

I'M FIFTEEN

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 04:58:18 GMT

yeeeh maaaan... I'M FIFTEEN I'M FIFTEEN I'M FIFTEEN!!

not that i feel fifteen.. BUT I AM.

hahah anyway... sunday was fun. went to ragin waters with family. EVERYONE was there surprisingly.

on my actual birthday...

i woke up and recieved a nice birthday greeting on the phone. :) that was sweet of him. then we went to target to get some pictures printed. spent time with some friends. went to boompas for lunch. went to the mall for a smoothie. talked a little. laughed a little. argh...my birthday had to be the busiest day ever. registration + volleyball= too much time spent at school :/

got home from practice... mom and dad brought home a nice thai dinner and ate tina brought home THEEEEE best ice cream cake from coldstone. :) kuya gino even came home for ONE NIGHT just to have an awesome birthday dinner. that was preeetttyyyy funny.

YEAH and the birthday celebration doesnt stop there!

today... ate tina bought me some REALLY GOOD volleyball shoes for the season. i'm starting to get obsessed with volleyball again. :P aaaaand... i get to go shopping tomorrow too :)

anyway. i'm finished. boy oh boy... eight days til school. excited/not really.